NOTs

i promise to myself......
each time i think about you.......
i should not miss you so much......
i must not feel so sick,
when you are not there.......
but still........
i could not stop the tear from falling......
when you were going away.........
lots of NOTs have broken me......
made me lonely.....in crowds.........
i wish for a day when i cry.......
but the falling tear meets your hands......
a day when i am not there........
and you wont be able to let go my absence unnoticed..........